Tuesday, 28 April 2009


Inconsiderate in dealing with anothers' feelings
Not handling in a proper manner
Was it ignorance ?
The lack of understanding?
Insensitivity towards others?

Monday, 20 April 2009

Sacked, fired, retrenched

This morning one of my bosses gave his final goodbye
He was in tears as he told us that he was resigning
Prejudged from his performance, we all knew he was sacked
I was reminded of a recent conversation he had with one of my close friends
Being the bread winner of her family (as she was married to an unemployed man) he
asked her about respect and expectations from the family for being an unemployed husband. He was so worried about the respect he may lose from his wife :)
Im so sorry about him especially his children.

Sacked, fired, retrenched
Its just something thats so common lately
Its like every seat in the office is a hot seat

I'm not ready for this, not yet
Its a shame that i have not reached that stage where
I could just walk out on this organisation
As much as this organisation needs me ... i think I need it more right now

*Sighs* for having to hear such news on a Monday morning.

Saturday, 18 April 2009


Today started all cranky n moody like a nagging grandma *sighs*
Laziness surrounds n am having a crazy thought of disappearing tis weekend. Just leave, switch of my phone n shut everyone out.

Friday, 17 April 2009

Moving on

In a confused state of mind unable to think clearly most things jumbled up hence the misjudgment. Moving on just has to be one of the many which i have forced onto me but yet again its just a word which actions needed to be done. The initiative just isn't there without the willingness the mind body and soul just seems to miscommunicate. Counting on external persuasion which never seemed to be heard.
Its not about replacing the old with the new. Nor its about forgetting. Trying to unlike or hate.
Its about being able to accept how things are as of now, accepting the fact that its not the same anymore, accepting the changes. Being comfortable with the present. Respecting the decisions that has been made.
When a regret of what should and shouldnt have happened continues to haunt, more than often we're standing still, waiting, hoping for a change of mind, perhaps a second chance. As if being hurt once or twice wasnt enough and being pushed by the intense desire to continue owning what was once owned. Its like waiting for rejection for the 2nd time, a confirmed rejection. Its a 'no' with a slap on the face, which aftermaths to more hurt, depression maybe shame and losing pride but it was all worth while.
Moving on is getting over. Not merely getting over 'you' but 'us'.
Happily moved on I'd be when Im over "U" and over "US".

Wednesday, 15 April 2009


...is a fondness towards something, someone
Its at times overly used
Overrated too
Maybe underated as it could be a beginning of positive feelings
towards something or someone :-)
Which if felt intensely could turn to love
But like is LIKE as of now...
liking doesn't mean loving what you like
loving doesn't mean liking what you love
Lols !
what am I saying
as of now ...
i know that ...
i will not say I like you if i didn't mean it
Plain and simple as that.

Monday, 13 April 2009


Too long...
Too late..
Who was i to make u wait...
Just 1 chance...
Just in case theres just 1 left..
I love u..
I missed u..
Been faraway for too long...
I keep dreaming that u'll be with me n u'll never go
Hold on to me,
Never let me go.

Friday, 10 April 2009


Everyday is an unending continuation of the day before
with short little dreamlike breaks for recharging
only to pick up where we left off
unvarying unchanging zombies
trudging along thoughts
filled with a long string of words and emotions
brought forward from hundreds of days ago
a tiny degree added onto each chapter
uncertain about the tiny disturbance nudging at the back of our heads
a vague feeling that it is not life
but merely a doing
a shadow of what life could be
a distraction ignored as logic takes over that the doing is a necessity
where necessity overtakes wants and desires
as it should be or so they are told it should be
until one day one will come and say that ...
life should not be done but lived.

Friday, 3 April 2009

Maafkan aku

Maafkan aku.
Semoga kesungguhanmu bisa membuka hati ini.

Thursday, 2 April 2009


Feeling so weak, she lies on her warm cosy bed
So helplessly weak, almost frail
Closing her eyes, she forces herself to sleep

Praying to be granted a sleep thats deep
Hoping to wake up a self thats fresh
Eyes that shines
A pale skin turned rosy again
The body frail no more
She hopes for nothing more
But to be herself once again

Thinking of you...

Comparisons are easily done
Once you've had a taste of perfection
Like an apple hanging from a tree
I picked the ripest one
I still got the seed...

You said move on, Where do I go ?
I guess second best ...
Is all I will know

Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you...

You're like an Indian summer
In the middle of a winter
Like a hard candy
With a surprise center
How do I get better
Once I've had the best...

Im so loving this song ...
Love the lyrics...
so loving it :)

Wednesday, 1 April 2009

My lucky nite

I really had fun tonite
The music was great
The food so lavishingly good...
Hmm, the keyboardist was irritating cos he was staring at me the whole nite
Despite it, i had a really gud time...
Ive never had luck @ lucky draws n tis was my 1st time...
So lucky to get a nites stay @ a 7 star hotel n resort... For 2 :p
Just what i needed, a relaxing break
Kinda sleepy...havent been out tis late for quite a long time
Overall, im happy tonite :-)